Email exchange with a State Trooper My
god, since 1994 I been wondering if someone else had an onset of this
disease like me. In 1994 I was a 27 year old very hard working,
and popular state trooper in .......... I was the highest drunk
writer in my station etc. and had the world by the tail. A great
wife, a great job, and rarely a sick day in my life. I got this
head cold that had me very foggy when I was waking up, took sick several
days, then one day I woke up and it was all gone. About a month
or two later, I got another head cold same thing, got this foggyness,
just wouldnt go away, went to half a dozen doctors and specialists,
couldnt find anything wrong. I drank tons of coffee and painkillers,
sleeping pills you name it, for the last 10 years, to try and keep working,
have burned over 1200 sick hours, God knows how much comp and vacation
to disguise this debilititating disease. However, I am at the
point where I can't do it anymore, I have become so weak and tired,
and so many think Im just faking to take so much time off. I was
diagnosed at the Mayo Clinic with chronic fatigue syndrome, and tried
to get disability recently. I was denied disability, as my state
does not honor disability for people they obviously think are faking.
So I am forced to continue working in this state of living death, fortunately
there are days when I have to do very little as I transferred into a
more country station. I also continue to get worse, its been 11
years for me now. Acupuncture herbs, thousands of dollars to naturophaths,
pills, tests you name it. To be quite honest I have prayed for
my own death of late, I would not commit suicide for I couldn't do that
to my family and I still have a bit of Christianity left in me.
I'm just to the point where I am boxed in, seems like there is no cure
for this shit. I did get some relief from acupuncture and herbs,
but it only lasted a few weeks, did you get that too? Then I went
back more and more, took higher doses of this ground deer antler stuff
that she was giving me, but it never worked again. Nothing else
has ever worked again, I haven't had a good day in years. I just
can't understand why they cannot find at least some test to show we
have a real disease. While the Mayo clinic doctor said that's
what I have, he has no proof, no blood test, nothing that the State
will accept and I am truly doomed. I still tell my co-workers
I have a sleep disorder, seems to go down better that way. Your
letter was riveting. I am familiar with everything you talk about. I
don't know how deeply you have gone into my web page but I have added
the link again here:
Hello Hi Rik!
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